A deeply personal and faith-driven reflection on battling inner demons, depression, guilt, and self-destruction while desperately holding onto hope. Set in the space between temptation and salvation, the song follows someone wrestling with pain, addiction, isolation, and self-worth—searching for peace while trying not to lose sight of God through the darkness.
Lyrics
I’m not an angel, or a demon
Just something in between
No matter how close to Jesus I get
The devil never let’s me be
Every now and then, I’ll have a glass of Whiskey
‘And smoke a little green
Always thought, things couldn’t get any worse
Sittin’ here, wastin’ away, livin’ in hell on earth
That’s why I stay hidden
My sanctuary is my own prison
Pill bottles, scattered everywhere
Just tryin’ to hold it together
Every time I call
You’re not always there
Instead of leaving a message
I disconnect
‘And fade deeper into this depression
Don’t know if I’ll ever get to heaven
I’m not an angel, or a demon
Just something in between
No matter how close to Jesus I get
The devil never let’s me be
Every now and then, I’ll have a glass of Whiskey
‘And smoke a little green
Always thought, things couldn’t get any worse
Sittin’ here, wastin’ away, livin’ in hell on earth
That’s why I stay hidden
My sanctuary is my own prison
Stepping on this scale, holdin’ my breath
Such a lazy, sloppy mess
Shell of myself
Let myself go
Now I’m living consequence
How did it get to this
Heart-attack Jack, It’s bad
Better say my prayers quick
I’m not an angel, or a demon
Just something in between
No matter how close to Jesus I get
The devil never let’s me be
Every now and then, I’ll have a glass of Whiskey
‘And smoke a little green
Always thought, things couldn’t get any worse
Sittin’ here, wastin’ away, livin’ in hell on earth
That’s why I stay hidden
My sanctuary is my own prison